Saturday, August 14, 2010
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12 August 2010 Thursday

After school, went to joyce's house after school.
me vanessa tay tiara valorie kym louis were all fighting with james.
worthless.
waste of time.
shall skip this part.
seetim and i had ACT , but i ended first
so i waited for her.
then vanessa ended her science ACT.
so the three of us took bus 80 to joyce house.
nic gab and james mills was there.
vanessa didnt stay long.seetim too.
so they left at 5.30.
we walked them to the bus stop.
said bye to them.
nic gab and mills wanted to play basketball
so we went to the court.
it was joyce's last day in singapore, technically
and i wanted to spend my last moments with her.
guess..my day was ruined and spoiled by someone.
i was really sad.
and from one moment,
i was on the phone with 3 ppl straight.
no fun with joyce.
plus i didnt get to cashcard her the last time...
i'm really sad..
i ended my day sadly too.


I told myself i cannot sleep for the night
cuz the next day i had to send joycelyn off.
I had to go to the airport by 5am.
early isnt it?
Plus, liyi and Sijie would be coming to my house & we'll go airport tgt.
T3. I am right.
I was on facebook,
throughout the night.
chatting with joycelyn for the last time in singapore.
And at 2am, i felt tired.
my eyes were heavy, my eyelids were alr closing
but i told myself to stay awake.
but i couldn't.

so i set alarm clock and my phone alarm.
just to be safe.
then i put my phone beside me,
so i could hear it ring..
and i dozed off...



13 August 2010 Friday aka unlucky day

My phone rang.
somebody called me, it was Liyi.
i pick up the phone and checked the clock.
HOLY SH!T! IT WAS 6.11 AM!
I OVERSHOOT!
AND MY ALARM CLOCK DIDNT RANG!
BOTH OF THE ALARM CLOCK!
I realised i had 13 missed calls from liyi And Sijie.
how saddening.
i should have woke up!
I AM SO STUPID AND DUMb!
so liyi passed the phone to joycelyn,
and i last heard her voice until 3years and good thing was she was laughing.
we didnt talk much.
cuz i felt like crying.
and i couldnt control my tears and so i broke down.
i couldn't believe it!
I ACTUALLY MISSED HER FLIGHT!!
i didnt get to see her for the last time before she left..
i was dumbfounded.
i hung up the phone.
and continue to stay in bed and message ppl.
effie and nic consoled me.
but tears still flow down my cheeks like a river.
i couldnt stop the flowing river.
it was impossible.
i was so sad..
i was so crestfallen.
i didn't have the mood to go to school anymore.
i think i know why my alarm clock didnt ring..
was i unlucky?
Friday the 13th?
i have no idea.
i really need someone to cry on.
went to school,
it was horrible.
i cried 4 times.
wow, i even actually counted it.

Joycelyn,
please forgive me , i missed your flight.
i shouldnt have slept.
im so stupid.
i should kill myself.
but i still remember my promises to you.
no more fight
no more hurting of myself
and a positive mindset
I'm really sorry.
Please forgive me.

i had a horrible day
but my friends cheered me up.
thanks guys(:



today,
im feeling sad again.
well, i shouldn't be sad if joyce is happy..
well...
im too emotional.
but that's me.

the best memories we had was the chalet..
i'll NEVER forget the times with you..
i promise :)